When I was a child, my father was a very religious man. We moved quite a lot and I became accustomed to making friends everywhere I went.
I was naive to the world and believed all wished me well. I guess I was in the 1st grade and we had moved out west and lived right next to a school. I still can remember the hummingbirds, God were they neat to watch.
At any rate, one day I went to the play ground to play some tether ball and while I was playing with my new friend he started saying Fxxk. I think most people get the idea of the word I am referring to.
I asked him what it meant and he looked at me and laughed and asked, you don't know? I said no and then a few of the kids came around and started saying that it is something your Dad loves to do.
They told me to go to my dad and to say, dad you are a mother Fuxker. Well I did not know what to think about it but decided I would go home and get something to eat.
When I walked through the door I saw my dad sitting in his chair and asked him what does the word FuxK mean? He jumped up and grabbed me by my hair and started beating me up pretty something fierce. My mom came out of the bed room and pulled my dad off me because my nose was bleeding pretty bad and my lip was badly cut up.
He had me go in the bed room and start praying for God to forgive me for what I had just done and told me I was going to hell if I didn't.
Well heck, I didn't want God to be mad at me and send me to Hell so I remember getting on my knees and praying to God to forgive me. I prayed as if God was in that very room and asked him to forgive me.
I don't remember why but I started praying that if God was going to send my dad to hell to send me in his place. It is funny how little children think.
It was the first time that I looked at my dad differently. I felt I could not no longer trust him to protect me. It is funny how we remember things that happened so long ago, yet seem like they just happened yesterday.
I look at my child and watch her smile and ponder, how can a parent not show love and compassion to their own child? I am sure my father did the best he knew but what a way to be taught a lesson about God.
Yep, I would have to say that this was my first time I was let down by my dad.
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Beach Fanatic
Sounds like you and I had some similar upbringing. It's a wonder that I turned out at all for what I had to work with. Too many bad memories that still hurt to dig up.
Hope it is all behind you as well and we all move ahead doing the best we can with what's left of us.
Have a nice weekend SandyBanks. Time for me to get out of here.
Hope it is all behind you as well and we all move ahead doing the best we can with what's left of us.
Have a nice weekend SandyBanks. Time for me to get out of here.
SoWal Insider
forgive your dad if you can
SoWal Insider
it is beyond comprehension why a parent chooses to beat (or bully) a child when the child asks a question - obviously wanting to learn. It seems so simple to just take a quick second to explain. Thankfully, you learned what not to do as a parent.
I'm not particularly religious but I do know that God is not an angry man (or woman) and is never to be feared. Ever.
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I'm not particularly religious but I do know that God is not an angry man (or woman) and is never to be feared. Ever.
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Beach Fanatic
forgive your dad if you can
I agree Bob, forgiveness is a gift we can give for all involved.
it is beyond comprehension why a parent chooses to beat (or bully) a child when the child asks a question - obviously wanting to learn. It seems so simple to just take a quick second to explain. Thankfully, you learned what not to do as a parent.
I'm not particularly religious but I do know that God is not an angry man (or woman) and is never to be feared. Ever.
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SoWal Expert
Why does everyone insist on feeding this troll?
Beach Lover
Why does everyone insist on feeding this troll?
Just curious, did you ever say it again?
SoWal Expert
Just curious, did you ever say it again?
It is truly getting tiresome.:roll:
Beach FanaticAuthor
forgive your dad if you can
One of my relatives got in a motorcycle accident on my birthday when I was a smile child. He became a paraplegic and is now in a wheelchair.
The other day I was talking to my mom and she told me about him going to a plastic surgeon to see what he could do about fixing a sore on his leg that would not heal.
Well the Dr. looked him over and said, um huh, yes, OK now, and then told him he could fix him right up. My uncle looked up to him with a smile and said, "OK doc what do we need to do?"
The Dr. looked him in the eye and said, well you don't need that leg any way so we can amputate it, right at the hip, and you should be OK.
You see my uncle did not need his leg, but it is still a part of him and he refused to let the doctor amputate his leg.
It may not have been any good to him but it was his and he wanted it. I guess our parents are the same way to some extent. We may not need them in the since of supporting us but we need their emotional reassurance sometimes.
I long ago have given up on getting that but like you said, is there anything I can do but forgive him? Anger only hurts the one who is holding on to it.
I do love my parents deeply and realize they did all they knew to do and for that I am forever grateful. For what ever reason, some people do not know the blessing it is to be a parent.
Everyday is like Christmas for me in my house. I look at my little girl and thank God for her everyday.
I wake up at night just to go to her bed and look at her sleep. I think of my dad and feel heartbroken that he never got to experience that kind of happiness.
Life has been good to me and although I falter often, I am alert enough to know that I have had a fortunate life. Just to live in this World and to see the beauty of God's creation is wonderful.
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SoWal Insider
Why does everyone insist on feeding this troll?
so, hmm, not sure why you're here posting.
It is truly getting tiresome.:roll:
I suppose it wouldn't be tiresome if you don't visit/read certain threads. ;-)
needs to get out more
i remember the first time i read your posts, and let you know about it. you were more fun then. in this most recent incarnation we get this kind of stuff and the bldg 7 drivel. can you please commit to one persona or the other? boisterous idiot, conspiracy theorist (my current favorite), sappy story copier, etc. all begging for response. typical. can you give us another 30 days? it was so peaceful.
SoWal Insider
I am going to stick my neck waaaaaaaay out here.
SBanks has some topics that many of us don't want to discuss. Troll stuff or not, I personally feel that if he/she wants to start a thread then that is their thread to discuss with whomever they want. I dont want to talk about his/her subject so I refrain from commenting --it can be hard..
SBanks has some topics that many of us don't want to discuss. Troll stuff or not, I personally feel that if he/she wants to start a thread then that is their thread to discuss with whomever they want. I dont want to talk about his/her subject so I refrain from commenting --it can be hard..
Beach Fanatic
Forgiveness, love, God........I don't see anything wrong with this thread at all.
No one has had a perfect childhood. Some were more difficult than others. I think God gave us these challenges for a reason and growing thru it and not letting events cripple you are life lessons...the reason we are here on earth.
No one has had a perfect childhood. Some were more difficult than others. I think God gave us these challenges for a reason and growing thru it and not letting events cripple you are life lessons...the reason we are here on earth.
Beach FanaticAuthor
i remember the first time i read your posts, and let you know about it. you were more fun then. in this most recent incarnation we get this kind of stuff and the bldg 7 drivel. can you please commit to one persona or the other? boisterous idiot, conspiracy theorist (my current favorite), sappy story copier, etc. all begging for response. typical. can you give us another 30 days? it was so peaceful.
Dear John,
No pun intended, Thank you for your response. When I post a thread, it is often because of something that I am thinking about at that time. I have copied a few Aesop fables and a couple of proverbs, for the most part, its true.
I may have used some creative discretion about the billy goats I bought, but it did put a smile on my face.
I understand why people do not want to talk about some of the subjects that I post about on this site, when I write, I try to entertain me. It is not that I mind anyone reading what I post, to the contrary, I just feel some people can not allow themselves to think about certain subjects.
This is OK, that is the great thing about my name being on the post that I write. Those who choose not to read my post are afforded that opportunity.
I find myself feeling good about what I have posted and enjoy reading my own post. Narcissistic, I don't know.
I believe the over whelming majority of the people on this site are nice people, if you were not, I would not be here.
SoWal Insider
Forgiveness, love, God........I don't see anything wrong with this thread at all.
i didn't either. I got red repped for it tho.
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Beach FanaticAuthor
i didn't either. I got red repped for it tho.
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I'm sorry.
Meow
I was confused by the title of this thread. It did sound a bit provocative to me...and of course, I looked. I guess sowal.com serves a different purpose for it's many different members.
Beach FanaticAuthor
It is truly getting tiresome.:roll:
Dear Jennifer,
I here you screaming for my attention so here I am, just for you. People can tell you a lot about them if you will just listen.
Take your name for instant. Jen-Nay. You scream the Nay out so that you can let those around you know that you are here. The word Jdarg, I guess is to say that Jenny graduated. It's just a guess, I have been wrong before.
I do look forward to hearing from you and want you to know I believe we are going to be great friends. Some of my best friends started off not liking me. Can you believe that?
Again sweetie, I hope you are having a great Weekend and wish you all the best.
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Beach Fanatic
Cut SandyBanks some slack.......I didn't see any reason for red rep other than someone didn't agree with a poster. Bad form.
Beach Fanatic
Cut SandyBanks some slack.......I didn't see any reason for red rep other than someone didn't agree with a poster. Bad form.
I take it back!
SoWal Insider
i didn't either. I got red repped for it tho.
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This is confusing. I dont get it at all..I have never red repped. To me it is a slap in the face with someone telling me to STFU....Dont worry bout it JR, I repped you green to counteract the red...
SoWal Expert
For the record and before the crazy PMing starts- I didn't give out the red rep. And anyone posting the kind of stuff like in this thread is the one screaming for attention. People like me who respond or give attention are just idiots I guess. Now excuse me while I have coffee with my engineer husband- he is home from "riding the rails" and I am no longer lonely. (SB's finest analysis of me, BTW !)
needs to get out more
there is absolutely no need to justify one's posts in a troll thread. the person who got red knows who gave it too them and why. i remember that classic interpretation from another troll trainwreck thread, since locked i believe, because it held no value, save comedic. somehow, i can foresee this one going 'up in smoke' also. priceless...
SoWal Expert
I can remember the first time I read about Jdarg being lonely and her engineering husband riding the lonely rails as he longed to be at home with her.
Meow
I need Skunky to say....ho-boy.
percy
I remember the first time I took a creative writing class--as in fiction.
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